Why do I Trade? Part 4: The Trader's Path

I am a trader. I realised that I ve always been a trader - only that I did not realise until I was tested. And someone once said, "Man are like teabags, you will never know how strong he is until he gets into hot water". How true this is. Without being tested as I had (as mentioned in my previous post), I would never have known that I am a trader.

Money is not the main objective for me now. I know for a fact that I could trade for a living. I know that once I ve conquered the pain that I endured. I know that the experience though painful was there for a reason - to serve as a reminder not to be complacent and disregard the trading rules. To follow my own trading plan. To give me the strength that I need each and every time, that I must execute the inevitable stops. I ve grown and became wiser, though I ve yet to attain the wisdom that many readers of this blog has. I ve still much to learn.

One may wonder, could I have avoided the disaster should I have met with the wise people I met on the net? Whose wisdom I ve always revered? If previously, I ve met people like Ben, Lsb, Theng and Csong? To be frank, I doubted very much. Some lessons have to learned the hard way. Some mistakes need to be learned in order for one not to forget. Some experience is needed for one to advance to another level.

Today, when I trade, I look at points, I look at percentage. I really do not have much idea how much profit or loss I ve made until I close the books. I find by looking at points or percentage, I trade better. Perhaps there is less connection with the $$$, perhaps, I really do not know. But this is the manner I trade now.

But why do I still trade - Money? Freedom? Well, I ll be honest with you, they have bearings, and weightage to it. Its like once you ve tasted the money, you re tainted. Its most difficult not to be addicted. But there is considerable risks with a mere trading for money mentality, as evidenced by my horrifying experience.

Freedom? Well, I ve long know that I cannot work for others. I m a perfectionist. Perhaps the word is too strong but consider this - when I make a decision, I placed the highest importance for the betterment of the organisation. One may think, yeah this should be the way. But then, in reality, this is not the way. When top management makes a decision, the number one consideration is being placed in satisfaction of certain parties. Yes, I am referring to office politics. I, for one, when given the authority to make decision, does not bow to these inefficient, ineffective practices. When traveling, I do not buy wine for bosses, I do not lick boots, though my crime would involved laughing at boss' stale jokes during meetings, lunches or dinners.

Therefore, with such mentality and holding such principles, I am really not suited in the corporate world, particularly MNCs. However, I am not looking at trading merely as a means to be free from what I am not suited for. While I may be unsuitable for the corporate world, it does not automatically mean that I am suitable for trading.

Some of you may have heard me mentioning about "the charts talk to me". While I do not want to give an impression that I am a mad person, or I am talking bullshit, I feel a "certain connection" when I look at charts. And it is a feeling which I could not describe other than saying that the charts speak to me. I could as if hear the charts telling me the direction of where it is heading. OK, I realised I am beginning to sound like a lunatic. So I shall not continue about it.

But the long and short, I enjoy looking at charts, deciphering the hidden meanings. While doing something I enjoy, what's more, I could actually make some money out of it. Isn't it just perfect? Doing something you enjoy while able to make money out of it? To the end, why do I trade? Its the love of the game - love of trading itself. :)

And why is this important? Otherwise, when met with huge profits, I would be overly excited while when met with huge losses, I would be overly depressed. To which, both is detrimental to trading. There should be another motive behind the money making objective to trade. That said,

Good Luck and Happy Trading!



EDIT: For MTV - Told you its Youtube Mania here :)
This one by Clay Aiken, supposingly an American Idol (sorry, I don't watch :P)